I’m clueless as to what to do right now. I am heartbroken about Greenwich university (I didn’t get in) and everyone keeps saying “you have other offers”. I don’t want to do education studies I want to be a primary school teacher in three years time not four. I fell in love with Greenwich the minute I got there and everything fell into place. I got good results too. I get so embarrassed when I constantly fail at everything I do. My friends do so well and I’m so proud of them and happy for them. They’re the ones that believe in me, as it would seem that my teachers have no faith in me whatsoever and are telling me to look for other careers. I don’t want to do anything else.

I hate my brother so much! Every time he come round I just have to sit there in silence or he has a go at me!

Today has been so much better! I feel so much more myself even if I did catch someone slagging me off today. Just made to laugh to be honest.

It’s so much better to be at college, feeling as if I’m doing something useful! Food Tech was tedious as usual and I got told off for talking in Law but normality is good :) My friends make me laugh and laughter is the best kind of medicine :)

Feeling so much happier today :) I love being around my friends at college! It’s nice just to get out :)

I think tomorrow /today will be a better day! … it has to be!

I hope my Grandma’s ok!<3

I don’t even have any followers but I don’t even care …. I didn’t make this to be an attention seeker or for anyone to read what I write… I did it for me …. mainly because I write too slowly to write my feelings down without getting bored and giving up.

I’m not always so depressing I promise.

I just need to come through these hard times and find my way :)

What if you don’t like who you are?

I am one of the strongest people you’ll ever meet, yet one of the weakest you’ll never see